So this post marks the end. Yes, this will be my last post. What has prompted this? I recently came across the KonMari Method of decluttering. At first I thought it was some sort of decluttering fad. After reading more into it and getting the book, I realized I have been decluttering and organizing all wrong. I won't go into detail here because you only need to Google KonMari and you will get the idea. Better yet, get the book. It's not expensive, only $15, and well worth it.
Anyways, this book got me thinking. While I think it only deals with the physical clutter in your home (I haven't finished it yet), I wanted to address my "To Do List" clutter. I have project, upon project to complete, but I really don't NEED to do them. The book says to keep things that only "spark joy". I asked myself "Do these projects spark joy?". Maybe at first thought, but now I feel them an obligation. One of these "to do clutter" I have is this blog. And it's ongoing. When I examined the "why" of this blog, I realized my motivations to have a blog were built upon self-esteem issues. Or lack thereof rather.
I'm a stay-at-home-mom and have been for the past 10 years. I know personally that other people don't view SAHM's as a "real" job. This impacted me greatly and therefore I never viewed it as all that important either. And so I tried to do more. I thought if I had a blog then people would know that I do more than just clean and watch TV (I think that's what people think SAHM's do). Does it really matter if people know that I do more than clean or watch TV? No, it doesn't, and only recently did I realize this.
After coming to this conclusion, I feel at peace to let the blog go. And that's not all. I'm letting Qwirk go too. Yes, that long-held dream of selling my products at Farmer's Market's has come to pass. It was a bucket-list item and I completed it. Not successfully, but completed it nonetheless.
So now I will have more pictures of my kids on my camera and not pictures that I intended to put on my blog. I will no longer have to stress about uploading pictures onto my sloooowww computer, and taking the time to write posts, which do take awhile BTW. I will have more time to spend with my family. I will complete the projects that "spark joy" and not the ones that I feel I need to complete for the blog. I dislike technology and the more time I spend away from it, the better I feel. Also, I hate retail! So why would I open a shop intending to sell THINGS. I absolutely love to make things for my family and friends but to sell to the masses more of what they don't really need seems silly. Why I didn't realize this sooner? I don't know, but at least I'm realizing it before I'm in too deep.
Knowing that I'm letting my blog go and Qwirk (my "business") go makes my feel free and light. I am keeping this blog up instead of deleting it like I'm tempted to, because I have been to blogs (via Pinterest, or other links) that have seemingly dropped off a cliff with no explanation. I always wonder what has happened to them to stop blogging, and I always think of the worst. Here I leave an explanation in case you're wondering.
Now off I go to LIVE my life, instead of blogging about it.
Blessings,
Christina
